Do I Hate Running?

I have an odd relationship with running. When I first started out, I read about all the addiction that was running and that I would get head over heals to the point where I would actually miss running if I had to take a break.

I’ve never felt that. And when I’m running I really don’t feel like I’m enjoying myself. I don’t run along with a huge grin on my face. Instead I picture my sofa and the massive meal I’m going to eat when I get home because ‘I’ve earned it’. I have been regularly known to shout ‘Why am I doing this?!” to my running buddies….. motivating for them I’m sure!

On a recent shopping trip I popped into Victoria’s Secret PINK and spotted a vest which proudly stated ‘I Hate Running’. Sadly they’d run out of stock, but should I see it again, I’ll snap it up. Other than the amusement I’ll get from wearing it at the gym on a treadmill day (though, probably to no one else’s amusement), the vest bears a statement which is fairly true.

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So why do you keep running, I hear you ask? Well I do get something out of it – achievement and well deserved smugness. I love the after feeling of a run, knowing I’ve just slogged it out for half an hour or more. I like the feeling of sweating more than I’ve ever sweated before and it feels like some kind of really gross detox. I enjoy the muscle aches I get after a really hard workout, and I really enjoy seeing improvements in speed, distance or general fitness no matter how long that takes. And I really REALLY like getting shiny medals.

I’m very hard on myself. I love learning new things, but I hate the learning part. I want the skill or knowledge NOW and have little patience for getting things wrong. I think this adds to the struggles I face when running. Plus the little voice in my head telling me I can’t do it is very persuasive at times.

After completing a half marathon last year, I know I wasn’t ready physically or mentally for it. It had seemed, at the time, like the natural next step from the 5k and 10k races I’d been running. But what I should have done was take off the pressure and just get better as those shorter distances. So that’s what I’m doing now. I currently complete 2 runs a week of around 5k (depending on whether the little voice throws a wobbly – I’m starting to sound like a schizophrenic….) and that’s fine with me. Incidentally, the voice is winning less often.

So do I hate running? Well, kinda. But it’s very possible I’ve done that to myself. With the Bupa 10,000 booked in for May, all I have to do is be able to run a comfortable 6 miles by then. And that’s more than achievable. By taking the pressure off and continuing loosely scheduled training I’m hoping that by the end of the summer I’ll be able to switch off, enjoy myself and just run.

5 thoughts on “Do I Hate Running?

  1. I’m glad the answer is only ‘kinda’. I think you’ve absolutely done the right thing by taking the pressure off. I think all runners have gone through a period where it is no longer ‘fun’ and I know for me stepping back for a little while helped me fall back in love with the sport again.
    Going by the amount of sales of that top it seems that lots of other people are falling out of love with the sport at this time of year too!

    1. I’ve definitely seen a huge amount of people take a running break over the last 9 months or so but they’re now back to it. I aspire to enjoy it so that’s the main thing!

      Yes the vest was very popular though also aimed at 16-21 year olds so possibly just as a statement rather than a fact. They also had one that said ‘I Just Can’t’ which doesn’t even make sense. Youth today! 😀

  2. Cross training is the best way to not get burned out….but if you kinda hate the run, it might not help 😉 I also have many days when the idea of running doesn’t appeal as I get ready to step outside the door, but by the end of first mile I am so happy to be out there. Altho there are definitely days where the couch and lunch at the end of the run are the greatest appeal of the run…..and I love running!
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      1. I’d say it is 50/50! I am by nature a rather lazy person, it is sometimes more fun to think about the run and the results rather than the actual run. But running is very freeing to me and I think of the best things out on the road. If only I remember them when I get home and put the computer in my lap!

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